Cowardly Supremes

The bastards appointed to the SU'preme Court really outdid themselves yesterday. But wanted to keep their hands clean, because that is what they do...  they deferred a decision back to congress to change and decide.  Doesn't that sound 'judicial''.  Trusting the current Congress to decide anything as vital to the sysem as the voting rights act.    Thjese people need to get their act together.

The voting rights act was a huge acheivement in American history to ensure there would be no more supression, and that every....EVERY...  citizen had a right to vote.  That's what democracy is supposedly about...  as some #Greek explained it to me, because, you know, they invented democracy in Athens, thanks to philosphers or somethin':

So the idea that Americans invented it is pretta funny becaquse, errm, there are documents that pretty much tell us it was a Greek invention, although the West seems not to like them at the moment.  along with a lot of other people..

Having followed eh last election closely in teh news, the attempts at keeping  certain minorities from voting was very prominent and angrifying.  But the Supremes seemingly live in a rarified atsmosphere...  when some of them aren't beeing seen with the Koch Brothers or others of that ilk, but they have the chamring knowledge that they are above what they decide and SEEMINGLY  stay at home but a few get found having attended weekends with the Koch 'Bros, those hideous but obscenely wealthy twins... almost...

I'm old enough to remember fifty years ago.  I remember very well.  Thoday the Bush appointees to the Supreme #Court killed democracy and equal voting rights.  Tomorrow, they might grant gay marriage rights...  fucking DOMA., which was a Clonton fist up the ass to all gaa 'Americqans might be rescinded, and all teh hurt will go away.  They would think.

I'll say right now:   if they repeal #DOMA and overturn Prop 8 tomorrow, it will be a huge victory for the lgbt communitsy, but a hollow one....  because we just witnessed....   they took equal voting rights away afer fifty years.  'And that should override every other thing.

The citizen's united case was the most scandalous diecision in decades.  Yesterday, they topped themselves....Bravo! BRAVO!     BRAVOOOOO!

Fuckwads.

Some people are heros or heroines and don't even know it

The first thing I do in the morning is go get cigarettes.  One package.  And the shop is run by a lovely woman  who loves to eat, has many interests in common with me, can be very very funny, and very very angry, and over the years, these little ten minutes of interaction have sort of piled up, and i MIGHT EVEN say...  we're nearly friends.

I've heard about her struggles with schools and having her hearing impaired son not be shunted off but demqands and GETTING equal treatment for hio,. amd je now a sucessful businessman.  She  has always been a fighter.  And she is liberal, although in some things conservqative, but the latter views tend to refer to aqncient history, where we hope they will rest.

As usuaal, I sounded off abvout the post below, it being Mondaqy, and haveing CHEWED on it all weekend, and she told me a remarkable story.  Her younger son had a schoolmate whose family really put him through the wringer.  And she sensed something was wrong and drew the boy out.  Upshot was, he wanted to be a girl, and his parents werent the nice liberal ones or even half-way understanding ones you would wish for in that situation,

At any rate, she was shocked at the reaction of his parents, and she did the one thing that probably saved thaat child's life.  She listened'  She read up and seeked qdvice.  And was a rock in the ocean tide for him helping him o decidee wjhat it is he wandted.

A few months ago she came in after having all the surgeries to complete her sex chaqnge and practically smothered her with love.

Without her..   she might have died...  her parents kicked her out...  just like relatives of mine did to their sixteen year old.  Being religious is hard work, seemingly, diswoning children.

But this lady...   I'm ce.rtain she saved a life, and she said she still can't figure out what the fuss was all about in the first place.     Amd tp look at her....  you'd never guess she was-----  the most empathetic person in the world


But she's taken...  for over thirty years.  So forget it.

Cry me a River;jey... Your#RE SORRY; AND THAT's it... Well you can shut your doors but reparations are 'WAY in order...

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I PURPSELY chose a clip that was 'Christian' and 'forgiving', because...  in the religion you were brought up in, that is what you are supposed to do.  Except:  I REALLY don't feel forgiving at all.

Look at that face..  'Who'd think it is the embodiement of pure evil and selfö-hate???`

Ok, let's back-pedal here, and explain...   TGhirty seven years ago, a group called EODUS was formed.  It was tho 'help peoplö. wo were gay become straiht.  /'Clears throat)...  People today in englightened lands woun't anderstand this at all.  But I was young at that time and very unhappy, because there weasn't media, or internet or anxyone to tell me there was nothing WORNG with me.  All I got form my sixthh year was a reamrk from a gredat Auint who was the queen of Rethug BITCHES to remar, 'Dick..  he runs like a GIRL.'  And from that moment, I thought something was WRONG with me.  

My father, God blsss him., never said a word to me...  EVAH.  If I was a bit odd, and not like other boys, he never said a word.  He's ninety-eight years old now, and we're cool...  but we don't talk about 'it'.  Even tho he met Peter, and tyhe most I got out of him was that he didn't think he was good enat eough for me.  That was a nice and loving thing to say, but he is of the last century, and was probably afraid for me because violence against my sort of person was common.  I'll never know if he ever worried about that.

So I grew up with a very negative self-image and thought for a long time I was the only person on the plantet who was 'bad' and would burn in Hell.  I sure had issure.

That was about the time that EXODUS came into being.  My Bio Mom told me when I was sixteen, first time I'd seen her after she had split and left us when I was five that if I'd discovered I were gay, I could come to her, and she'd fully understand, and THEN told me about the joys of anal sex.  

Now, if that wou't fuck your mind, what will, i ASK  you.....  

So imagine a world where you have now one to want to emulate, and you feel like a freak.

Exodus came in...  and told everyone iwhat you felt was learend behaviour, but they had the key, reparative therapy, and 'whoosh!' EVEN >YOU COULD BECOME A HETERO.

SO they had prgrames... presumably for a price...  and you could presto-changeo be a raging homophobic Republicunt.  Or somehing of the sort.

I was very lucky, because I never selfö-identified as being gay as the be-äall and end-all of my personality.  I thought, ''Ok, it's part of who you are, but yhu're lots of othing things too.'  And struggled with it alone till I was thirty, had an epihany, and said basically, 'well just FUCK you all...  I am who I am and I'm not vgong to be afraid any more.

Others in my generation weren't so lucky.  'They tapped into the trap that EXODUS set.  And  blamed themselves when they couldn't 'change' to the point of such dispair, many commited suicide, or submitted to experiments and shock therapy....   and many killed themselves.  

Thanks to the an absikzte sea.change in society, and the immense efforts of edumacation in the LGBT communitys, their sources of income have dried up, so yesterday, the head of this nefarious and evil group announced the end of their endeavours......

And the cureent head BASTARD apologised.....  for all the huurt inflicted and for those who took their lives, in a wasy that really roiled me, where I thought, 'Reallah?  YOU SICK FUCKS'.  

Younger people nowadays don#t understand the import of this news.  Especially here.  They grew up thinking everything is sorta normal, as long as it doesn't get in their way.  Case in point...  my friend K wasover in the winter scoping out my dvd's and piped up wiht Queer as Folk...  what's that about`? '  

said, 'oh, you won't like it, it's aboput gays, and and is fairly graphic.  The stations in the US had bomb threats when it was aired.  He wanted to borrow it, of I gave him the first season to look at, and he thought it was funny and interexsting.  I'd forgaooten Iive in Euerope.  

Tonight I was on the horn and told him about EXODUS and how they closed down, and he said, 'OH...  'See the LIGHT''...  there were two episodes about that in the first season.  So I said, 'Yes...  people killed themselves over it because they couldn't convert.'  Silence.

It had been portrayed humourously, but I hadn't had the heart to tell him what damae it had caused.

For those assholes to say, 'I'm sorry'     just doesn't cut it.  As a person of a certain age, I WANT RETRIBUTION.  Saing I'm sorry won't bring back the people they drove to suicide, and I am one who nearly went that route..  I want to see reparations... BIG ones.  Then...  I might accept their apology...  but unlike the lady reverend...   I can't find it in my heart to forgive the unforgiveable.

fun with health care...

I ordered my glasses today.  I get them under a leasing term because the fucking graduated ones cost so much you might as well just go blind and die.  

Leasing is...   you pay for your glasses via the bank in a nominal rate every month, and after two years, they replace them for free!  Hey!  WOW!  

Shit...

Our laws covering glasses on the national insurance rates are scandalous.  

So I ordered me some reading glasses per prescription, and am at 6 dioptrin which is a measurement and well on the way to going blind.

So this company has a leasing programme for glasses.  Sounds real good.  EXCEPT: you can only lease one pair not two, nope.  t'other is to  be paid for in full, and get this. THE THICKER THEY ARE; THE MORE HEY COST:

#I have anger issues with this... clearly.  They can suck you dry monetqarily just so you can see.  That and the dental cre system in our health care are the two things that I think need great reform.

In the other branches of med...  no complaints...  OBAMACARE is coming...  and just like here, there will be drawbacks...  but it will be awesome.  Actually, So many people in 'Murka won't have to line upü in cattle call health clinic 'SHOWS any more and reveal to the world that 'MURKA  is a heartless place.  Except:   It IS!

Who wouldaa thought...  

And the NSA thing.

As to Miss Lindsay Graham...  you go girl on your path of self.destruction, and Mr Turtle should just crawl under a rock and go to sleep for q hundred years only to wake up and have some kids think he is  frog qnd splat him with 59 Chevies.  I had one once but no drivers license yet.  My 

Life is so unfair

I've heared from three doctors, and gotten the same advice. All of them suspect I might have diabees. And given my hisory with Peter... it's really freaking me out. And even tho i knew better, I called Peter. Even after all this time, and you'd think I'd have learned. We used to discuss everything. But he's in a place... there's nuttin' for a come-back or interaction. All he understood is that I may be ill and have diabetes... and he sort of laughed, not meanly but the sense of 'how ironic'. Being the eternal iöptimist, I'd hoped for something in him to awaken and guide me, but it really isn't there any more. Nobody's home and he's in med heaven. Yet still half-way alert. Because when I told him if it really is true that I have diabetes, theere is no WAY, I'm gonna do that. And will leave. And he said, 'take me with you.'. And I said, 'Sorry Bear, can't do that.' If i comes to that and I really do, although I can't imagine why... I've always hated sweets and even ice cream as a kid, haven't had sugar in the house for ten years. But I suppose anything is possible.... But if it is... oh no, I'm not doing it. Have two shout outs from him where just the names make Peter give a shout ou and his heart-felt greetings. First to my Father, and then my cousins D and L. He loves them. which makes me verys happy. Actually... We hadn't been together long, and we were learning about each other, and exchanging stories about our families, and he was so closeted in certain ways for the time, and I wAS SORT OF EXPLODING OUT OF THE CLOSET: Ad writing a lot of stuff. And he took me aside one day and knew that I missed my father. So he took me aside, said he's saved a little money and booked a flight for him to visit us. That was very overwhelming. Of course things went sour... someone in the famblxy thought we were just jerking an old man of 70 around, and so interfered that the discount ticket Peter had gotten got bumpded and he had to pay three hundred dollars more, but other than the original anger at the interference, I never heard one further word of reproach. I later learned it had cost him the money he saved and he took a very large advance on his pay to enable us to go all over the place and for me to show my father the best side of Austria. So I guess he loved me as much as i loved him. And we all know what happened. It was the same with my cousins, and then he just arranged a sailboat tour of the adratic, hoped to be there,but was alreaDY too ill to participate in. Sometimes I think he fell in love with my family, and because he loved me and just spoiled anyone in my family or friends with a generosity that was extraordinary. So it's still there... he knows the names, perks up, says, 'oh, send them my most heartfelt greetings'. So to my Dad and cousins... something is still there in his heart if not in his mind. I can't condemn anything he ever did... later in the relationship. He always loved me, and I was always astgounded. Because he was so beutiful and I WAS A GEEK: bUT WHATEVER. If I ge a posiive on a diabetes test... there is no way I'm gonna end up a vegertable in a Pflegeheim. so... enough upset for one day. And oh yeah...

NSA just ate my post

There was a lot more below. It disappeared when I hit 'publish'. So much for freedom of expression.

This Is laughable... if it weren't so sad

For three days, I've been listening to the 'shaock and awe' of the US media and the reacions to the revelations regarding the NSA 'scatbe bad guys would know.... Psych 101. Whatever... they do it worls-wide. All you need is someone really evil... like Dick Cheneys to come in and take over, and boy howdy. Hitler will have looked like amateur hour, because wiith the hate coming out all over the place over there? 'Murka is skeeey. And a lotta people got castrated. It's a fact of life that the world is a terrible place and terrible things happen but it is no reason to go all submissive and thing it will make you safe. All in all, fairly disgusting. Can anyone tell me what people there were fighting all this time for? I don't think it was for that.

Adventures in Health care...Euro style

After avoiding doctors for two and a half years, it's become time to have some maintainance done .  So I got an optometrist appointment, and had the good luck to get an appointment in two weeks after calling.  Except that went down the tubes because the doctor got sick, so it was today.  I presented my plastic insurance card, today, and went through the exams involving some of the most modern machines imagineable.  Including fotos of the inside of my eyes immediately available to study on the computer.  (They sort of looked like NASA fotos of Saturn.)

After an hour, I had a consult with Dr. Hedwig, who is strict, but I like her especially because of that.

She told me she is stymied, because she can't find out any cause for how badly I currently see.  There is only a beginning of glaucoma, hardly enough to be an impairment. and otherwise, structurally they are sound, but the veins are extremely constricted.  Could be due to high blood pressure.   So she is 'at the end of her latin', as she said.  Although she let out a low whistle when the eye fotos appeared on the screen...

So she set up an appointment at the eye clinic where I will have more tests.    And will only have to wait six days.  Which is really fast.

She aksi advused ne to get to my GP and check out my blood pressure and test for diabetes.

So,,,,   there will be no bill.  There will be no financial havoc wreaked on my finances.  And will get the best tests possible till they find out what the problem is.  That is very comforting.  Beginning next year, people in the US are going to find that Obamacare is going to be something very positive after all.

 

back after hiatus....

My laptop hasn't functioned since november.  Today I got a replacement.  So I will be back bloviating.  Am catching up on news I hadn't seen in  a long while, and getting the new one to have the programmes in it that I want.

I reallx missed msnbc programmes.   Am currently having the gladz because 'crazy eyes' Michelle Bachman, congresswoman, Schadernfreude is soooo  delicious.